I have been fighting a devestating illness since 1999. I had to drop out of medical school, and I have not been able to work. My heart went in v-fib twice during a test and I had to be shocked back to life both times. I now have a pace-make defribullator. I also have had to have a hysterectomy due to chronic nausea and migraines, which has caused me to gain 90 pounds. It has been so horrible for me and for my kids. My spouse has been very unsupportive to say the least. I have had over 70 hospital stays (some for 2-4 weeks), and he did not even come and visit. I also have to go in for surgery to have a permenant IV put in because of all of the hospital stays, my veins are to warn out. I have now made the choice to leave my spouse, and he is talking my children out of coming with me, and staying in a home in a very bad nighborhood, which I will fight. It is just all around a bad situation, and I am not supose to be under stress. He told me he would not let me take my truck which we are leasing, and it has my name on the lease, because his credit is so bad, but I would not be able to get a vehical due to not being able to work, and not being able to affored it. However, now I will not have a vehical to get to my doctors appointments, and getting my kids back and forth. I am so overwhelmed right now I do not even know where to begin. I know leaving is the right thing, and I need to work on my health. My pastor, doctors, family and friends have all been telling me to leave for years, but I do not know how I am going to support my self. I am going to subsidized housing, which is so hard for me. I have worked since I was 12 years old, and not to be able to support myself is unbeilably difficult. I have taken care of everyone and everything, and I know I need to take care of me. It sure would be nice to have someone take care of me too, or have some support. I have never known what that was like. Life had gone from hard to impossible! What does one do? It amazes me how people can go spend the amount of money they do on one shopping spree, or one outfit, and there are so many people in genuine need. I used to give so much money to the needy, and to find myself in this predicament with not one person who will help, it is so heartbreaking!!!! I started a foundation for Families over-coming auto-immune disorders, and I have quite a few celeb. friends and it shamed me that NOT 1 would give, and yet their driveways were full of cars. But what comes around goes around I guess, and they are living such shallow lives. TWO of them are no longer playing ball, and another one has not been working, so I guess that does go to show you that fame only lasts so long. "Give and you shall receive". But then what happened in my instance. I guess some day I will understand. If anyone feels the tug on thier heart to help a mother who feels her back against the wall. I really would apprecialt it. You will be doing more than you could ever know. Or if you have any advice or solutions, please feel free to share. I need all the help, and encouragment I can get. I know it is the holiday season and I hope everyone had a good and safe one. There were no gifts in our home, which was very sad and hard, but that is the reality of the way it is right now. It is a very desperate situation. So if some of you feel your self in a bad situation, there is always something to find to be thankful for!